Being alone...

Today's post is gonna involve a topic I've been thinking about a lot lately: loneliness, or better, being alone. 

Everyone - at least once in his life - has experienced that weird and sad feeling of being alone, misunderstood, abandoned, and I'm not just talking of those who don't have a family or something like that, I'm talking of all those situations where we're surrounded by lots of people, but none of them can really and completely understand us. 

Lately, I've been feeling this way quite often, at home and in life in general, maybe because it's a phase of my life in which I don't really fit anywhere or with anyone...I'm trying to make my mind about which 'job' path I wanna follow, where and how, but it's harder than I expected, since I never received ''the call'' of my life, and the clock is ticking, so I'm feeling quite overwhelmed by everything, trying my best with poor results!

Probably this is the reason why I feel alone most of the times, because I see all my friends and university mates all set up, with a job, far away from home, getting married and having babies and how their lives are so perfect, while I'm still here, trying to figure out a way to escape my parents' house, finding a decent but not too boring job and take control of my life once and for all! It's kind of stressful though! @_@ I'm sure I'm not the only one experiencing this awful phase of my life, (or at least I hope that!) but apparently no one understands me when I try to explain what is going on in my mind...It even seems I'm exaggerating the whole situation, and not making any effort to change what I don't like of (and in) my life. Seriously?

Honestly, I never found a magic recipe to solve all the problems life presents, but if someone did, please give it to me, because I'm soo tired of failing that I'm hoping for a miracle (and a pretty big one!)! LOL 

The saddest thing I've noticed is that all those people who once declared being your friends, once they have found their path and everything simply forget you, like you never existed, like you never shared anything and poof, they are all gone! I think this is the most egoistic thing, because it means they never really cared about anyone but themselves...and it's sad, really sad. No surprise then, if nowadays teenagers (but not only) spend a lot of time online, chatting with people from the other part of the world, hoping to find a bit of that understanding they can't find in 'real life'! I'm the first one to have developed a sense of 'rejection' towards the people I'm surrounded by (generally speaking), because I find impossible to have an honest conversation with them, to share a common interest...And I'm not talking only of friends, but also boys,  is it really possible that there are only 'empty' people?? Or am I asking too much?

Well, I'm getting too grumpy so it's better if I stop right here! LOL Enjoy the rest of this gloomy and rainy sunday - at least here in Italy - and I hope you're not experiencing my same situation, but if you do, please let me know in the comments!

Nutmeg^^ xxx